The Third Shraddha – a witness!

This often happens; nay it has become a part of my existence now. There are already two Shraddhas existing in me and at the same time I am aware of this third Shraddha always with me. Let me explain – Suppose this physical Shraddha is speaking or writing, there is another Shraddha within who prompts me to do things and at the same time there is this third Shraddha standing apart looking at me – how I speak, what I write, what I do! She watches me when I read Marie Louise Burke volumes and she becomes a part of the entire scenario to witness the events happened 120 years ago. Then she follows me when I speak about Him and we all become one with Swamiji. There remains no difference in me, listeners and Swamiji. Oh, this Oneness in many and many in One..!

Yes, third Shraddha is a witness attitude of mine which doesn’t leave me even for a moment now. It started happening when I was leaving for Arunachal Pradesh in 1986. Till then I was not much aware of her existence, though she was always there. In between during the traumatic years she seemed to have lost because i got too entangled in my own dukha, my sorrows, self pity. Then as i started going to Sri Sarada Math, Pune and again speaking about Swamiji she slowly returned. She told me that she was always there but i was only aware of my Annamaya & Manomaya koshas. My body didn't have time to think and my mind didn't want to think...!

This Sakshibhava, the witnessing attitude has to be developed and then to be made it a part of oneself. The moment I indulge in any activity I do, I feel bad or I feel happy but the minute I become aware of this witnessing Shraddha I start rising above all emotions of happiness & sorrow.

During the journey of 150 lectures the Third Shraddha started getting very prominent. Each lecture became a new creation, each place a new acquaintance, each family an old relation, each person becoming close, breaking the barriers of past lives.

The Third Shraddha kept watching in awe at these events, people and relations! From where do they come? How everything is getting organized? The unseen hand of the divine making things happen smoothly. It actually happened last year during my wandering with Swamiji like Marie Louis Burke says - A divine plan unfolding..!

Just imagine all this was happening only because of Swamiji, in whose name events were organized. He made me believe that what happened to Him as an unknown stranger in an unknown city 120 years ago can even happen now who ever will work in His name.

Now, as I write this blog the Third Shraddha is watching in silence, watching my mind, my emotions as they flow through words. She makes me realize that I have to be more aloof and detached but Swamiji doesn't allow and again His love binds me…