'Unknown becoming Known and then my very Own'..!

My Power House where all my Prayers are always heard...Sri Sarada Math, Pune 

As one day i wrote this line - 'Unkown becoming Known and then my very Own', it became very dear to me during this entire year. It is a curious fact that I do not remember when I said about giving 150 lectures and how this became my ‘Sankalp’ ever. In fact I am very happy that I do not remember. The moment I identify myself with that time I said it, it will show my ego i.e. “I said it at so and so time”! By not remembering it I know it’s His wish & not mine.

As I reflect over the events of last year, I know very much in the heart of my hearts that this was not easy – 150 over a year’s time, with my work, office, travelling, really it was not easy. By His grace I rarely fall sick but I remember constantly praying to Swamiji, “Please, let me not fall sick till I complete my 150 lectures”. See, how we pray? When I was scared of losing my voice in 1993, I remember constantly praying to Thakur, “Please, give my voice back to do Your work, to speak Your praise”! And HE granted. Once more intensely I had asked sitting outside the Male General Ward of K.E.M hospital, “Lord, please save Sudhir from dialysis at least for a year”! The prayer was granted and it was exactly after a year that the dialysis began. So folks, we have to be very very careful for what we ask from the ever merciful One!

I am not aware how this year has passed! Things just went on happening.. people who knew me & knew me not went out of the way to organize my lectures. This really surprises me even today…they didn't know how I speak, nor do they knew me but they just trusted the person who approached for me. I got humbled day by day as I travelled and stayed at the homes who treated me like a family and let me confess – Every time, at every place I told myself, this love, this respect is not for me, this is just for Him whose name I represent and the name whom these people love beyond imagination.

Looking at the devotion of people at certain places I kept staring in awe, in reverence! When would I become like this? When would I start worshiping Him like them? I stopped questioning and became more n more humble!

Swamiji in fact got me prepared for this work for all these years. When I look back I know and I am convinced that it is He who moved me from place to place carrying His message. Had He not made me complete the lecture series on ‘New Discoveries’, Tantine, Sara Bull and again and again speak about the unknown Swamiji in the West, this journey wouldn't be possible.

As I look around and see people striving to get unselfish love, I find myself most lucky to have not one but many such people in my life whom I call ‘Atmaj’… Born of my soul, nay, parts of my Soul..!

I experienced the Oneness of which Swamiji talks, the scriptures define, Thakur practiced and the sages proclaimed! It is this 'Ekatma Bhava' which binds us all to love unconditionally, without thinking of returns & gains, profits & losses, gives & takes…just pure, unassuming, infinite Love.

Aptly putting these feelings in words is – “Unknown becoming Known and then my very Own..!