I am Ahilya reborn by HIS magical touch...

Belur from Ganges

We reached Kolkata on 22 February  2013, me along with my Aai (mother) and aunt. In the evening took darshan of Kali Ma at Kalibadi & held back my tears. I broke one more inhibition by buying 'Shankhchudi' for myself & wore it happily as a  blessing of Mother Kali. This time had planned to show all other historical places to Aai before we went to Belur. So we saw Netaji Subhashbabu's House which made us feel extremely proud, Victoria Memorial  and Nehru Children's Museum which again is an awesome place to visit. Then lastly we travelled by Metro and were ready to go to Belur on 25th morning. After dropping the luggage i almost ran to the main temple and then it was in torrents that the tears rolled though very silently. As i reached Swamiji's room i could not control, there was no one to see & did it matter? Cried to my heart's content as they were tears of joy, of happiness, of meeting my 'GuruSakhaa' as i call Him. I kept looking at each of His object, His musical instruments, His bed which Josephine had gifted and kept feeling HIS presence. Finally i was at Belur.!! At Swamiji's abode, with Him, in His presence..!!!  I felt very lucky to be here in the year of  Swamiji's 150th birthday celebration  It is so peaceful at Belur even with so many tourists around. I just kept visualizing Josephine and all others moving at every place...Bhuvaneshvaridevi standing down and calling, "Biley" and the obedient son coming down to  meet His mother! Sitting at any Sri Ramakrishna temple in front of Thakur always tears roll, silent soundless tears, i know not for what but it surely works like a therapy, cleansing my inner wounds..!! Next day was Jayrambati and Kamarpukur which was like infinite blessings showered. On 3rd day 27th attended Mangalarti at 4.30am which felt like an utterly magical experience. It was a full moon night and could still see the bright moon, intense silence, rippling sound of Gangaji and third Shraddha walking along witnessing me n my thoughts. As the aarti began i got lost almost till the end...no tears, no pain, no grief, no wants, no body and no mind absolutely. Will this magic happen again? Where was 'I'? Where did He take me? Was the small 'i' merged with the Cosmic Self? The hall was full, all quiet, withdrawn and the atmosphere was charged with intense energy and unwavering bhakti...Yes, because only Bhaktas would come at such early hour to attend the Mangalarti.

From 27th Feb. to 2nd March i was at Shovabazar, Rajbadi, where we had 3 day conference at the very place where exactly 116 years ago Swamiji was given a royal welcome by King Navkrishna & the people of Kolkata to their beloved Naren after He returned from America. About this separately tomorrow. On 3rd March i went back to Belur again, this time alone and saw the room of Swamiji under maintenance and felt lucky to have seen it earlier in original form.

Below His room is a mango tree under which Swamiji used to sit, it is more than 150 years old, standing with the support of pillars. Yet, it was in full blossom showing that it too was equally blessed. I put my head on its branch and said to it, "Do you know, YOU have become a Kalpavriksha....blessed by Swamiji's touch You too have become blessed and can also bless others. You have attained the power of a wish fulfilling tree." I wished for a child, a girl who was constantly in my prayers this time. Till date i never have asked anything from God except sorrows but this time prayers were at Mothers & Masters feet to look after her and make her free of an eclipse which suddenly darkens her life. I prayed at Mayer Baadi, Udbodhan- Mother's Home to Holy Mother from where no one returns empty handed. I am sure the trinity will bless the child..!!

Like Sati Ahilya, i too was like a stone lying on the streets on whom thousands treaded without a single glance and life was meaningless. Then HE came and the magical touch of Swamiji transformed this stone into a flowing stream of life full of vigour and energy....making it meaningful, to serve, to pray, to help and to spread His message of strength and of love.!

May by His grace each life be a meaningful journey turning from a stone to Pure Energy transmitting Love...unselfish, undemanding!