"I see no way, but His eyes see..."

In Boston everything around Him seemed bleak and uncertain. Anyone in His place would have lost courage but Swamiji was not the one to accept defeat. He wrote a letter to Alasinga Perumal which according to him was a moment’s weakness. But for me it has become very important letter now. I must have read this letter and all that part of the chapter for ‘n’ number of times. Swamiji writes,

“All those rosy ideas we had before starting have melted, and I have now to fight against impossibilities. A hundred times I had a mind to go out of the country and go back to India. But I am determined, and I have a call from Above; I see no way, but His eyes see. And I must stick to my guns, life or death”

As I was preparing for the lecture in Ramakrishna Math and read this letter again, I got goose bumps all over. You know, I have got a habit of getting stuck when I like something. This happens all the time when I read the Volumes of New Discoveries in the West. Then I read it again and again and yet again. As a madwoman I keep reading, and then start repeating as I eat, as I sleep and as I walk to my office. It is as though I get possessed by those words and Swamiji reveals Himself to me in a totally different form.

So folks, it so happened that I was reading this letter and I got stuck as usual..! I felt I have read something different, very powerful and re read it…and then I suddenly realised what had caught me.. “ I see no way, but His eyes see”. O God, I thought, so this is it..!! how come I didn’t notice it till now..!!

If we just start applying this mantra in our life with total faith in HIM who can see, things will surely change.

Folks, please think about these magical words, written by our Swamiji. These are not ordinary words I feel, there is so much conviction, so much power when He says it. Hence, whenever we are in a dilemma or uncertainty of what will happen or whatever is happening, we just have to believe in –“I see no way, but His eyes see”

Facing Challenges in Life

It is a longest gap ever since i started this blog. Was engaged in doing His work only so i know everyone will have a large heart to forgive me. Have completed 30 lectures till now and marching on...

On 6^th May I had to speak at the Youth Forum in Ramakrishna Mission, Pune. The topic given to me was ‘Facing Challenges in Life’. It had to be connected with Swamiji and truly who else other than Swamiji has faced so many challenges in life? Right from losing His father in His Youth till He came back from Italy to India after His second visit to Europe!  Almost 20 years of struggle and hardships without a single moment’s respite.

None of us must have undergone such challenges ever. It is not just about losing His father at a young age but it is about the unexpected turn of events after that. This phase in Swamiji’s life actually is very important as it tested Him on all the levels of physical, psychological, financial and also personal. A phase where His all the capacities were tested to the brim.

We usually ignore this part of Narendranath’s life which can be very inspirational even in today’s time. How he faced all the worldly problems with so much courage is exemplary in itself. I find this one situation very challenging when His mother reprimands Him on praying to God as He wakes up and says, “what has God given us, why do you have to pray’. A mother whom Narendra had seen worshipping Lord all his life, who wouldn’t even have water before her Pooja rituals..!! When she says such words, how difficult this young boy must have felt at heart.  I always try to think of Swamiji as, what He must have felt? I try to reach to Him in all possible ways as we all know that how tender and soft his heart was. How he felt for everyone around Him! And what must be His state of mind seeing His mother and brothers suffering of poverty.

When we read this aspect of His life and when I tell it to the youth, I have seen that they find Him very close. As though he is not some where remote to reach out but is very very close to our heart. As I always feel that if I just stretch my hands I can touch Him.

As we go through all these trials throughout His life, we also see Him facing various challenges in America in different forms. The challenges He faced after reaching Chicago is the culmination of all. Just see, before leaving Mumbai He says to Swami Turiyananda, this parliament is organized for this,  pointing His Finger at Himself. And after saying this when he lands up in America, He finds none of the things in his favour.

Even when he is sitting under the tree till Mrs. Hale comes, everything is uncertain, gloomy. Later too after becoming famous, he is not spared by missionaries and the toughest battle he fought at Detroit.

How much to learn from His life..!! None of us have ever faced problems that Swamiji faced. I am dead sure about it.  When he was in Boston, he had to face one weird situation. Let us know it from him –

                         "I landed in Boston once, a stranger in a strange land. My coat was like this red one and I wore my turban. I was proceeding up a street in the busy part of the town when I became aware that I was followed by a great number of men and boys. I hastened my pace and they did too. Then something struck my shoulder and I began to run, dashing around a corner, and up a dark passage, just before the mob in full pursuit swept past - and I was safe!"


You feel so much pain when as you read this and visualise the above situation. How he faces these challenges let us see tomorrow.