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Monday, May 20, 2013

Swamiji at "Camp Percy, White Mountains - New Hampshire"


White Mountains State Parks


White Mountains – I feel extremely happy to utter these words ‘White Mountains’! At last a vacation for Swamiji..! Vacation and that too with the people who loved, respected and revered Him beyond one could imagine. Mr. Leggett, Swamiji and the party of 4 people left from New York to Portland, Maine. They took a steamer from New York to Protland, then by a train to a small village of Percy in New Hampshire which was situated in the remote region of White Mountains. From Percy they had to go by a rowboat to Mr. Leggett’s rustic cabin called ‘White Birch Lodge’ standing at the very edge of the lake. Behind the lodge were hills covered with rich green forests and one could see the woods of birch, pine stretched till far.

This team of six arrived at 1 pm on the 6th June 1895; the Lodge’s Log Book has the entry with the names & signatures of – “Besse MacLeod Sturges, Francis H.Leggett, Josephine MacLeod, Georgia Waitham Spence (cousin of MacLeod sisters), Swami Vivekananda, India, Heathen Hindu.”

This 12 day stay at Camp Percy with its quietness, lake, woods and away from the civilization gave Swamiji a long needed rest of body and mind. Also, He was with the most loving friends and this atmosphere provided Him the freedom of time & space into which His spirits could soar to higher realms. This Lodge was so far from the nearest village that one had to row for almost an hour to the extreme end of the lake.

As I said Swamiji is the best Son in the World. He instantly wrote to Mrs. Bull, “This is one of the most beautiful spots I have ever seen.... So lovely, so quiet, so restful! And you may imagine how glad I am to be here after the bustle of cities. It gives me a new lease of life to be here. I go into the forest alone and read my Gita and am quite happy... I will meditate by the hours and days here and be all alone to myself. The very idea is ennobling.”

He loved to walk alone in the woods and sit by till late as much as He wished. His friends were merry indeed and Swamiji enjoyed their company and was as merry as they were. Mr. Leggett & Besse were to be married in September and this vacation was like a betrothal party in the wilds.

Swamiji could effortlessly move from one mood to another. Sometimes very playful and next moment He would raise to higher blissful state of Samadhi.

More thrilling part of this sojourn we shall see tomorrow...

Friday, May 17, 2013

"A World Teacher, A World Student and World's Best Son"


At the beginning of 1895 Swamiji decided to settle down in New York. He had a hectic travelling and strenuous lecture touring through the Midwest and East of America for almost more than a year. Now, He had chosen New York as His headquarter instead of Chicago or Boston. It was in New York that Swamiji started His mission full fledged by applying His Master’s message to all aspects of Eastern & Western life.

His lectures and classes were always filled with the true spirit of Sri Ramakrishna, the tremendous power of His Master of which He had a firsthand knowledge and also which was transmitted in Him with full force. He was fully aware of the infinite spiritual power flowing through Him during this period. Just two weeks before He closed the New York sessions He wrote to Mrs. Hale, His first American mother – “Financially, this winter’s work was not success at all. I could barely keep myself up, but spiritually it was very great”. 

Swamiji never ceased to learn; He knew Eastern life but He kept studying about the culture & history of Western life. He was not only a World Teacher but a World Student too. Everything concerned with humanity interested Him. He read, retained and related every facet of man’s life.

In the intense activity of lecturing He still found time to write inspiring letters to His brother disciples in India and planning & finding practical solutions to India’s problems.

He never cared for praise or blame. He knew one cannot keep the society in good humour & at the same time do great works! He wrote to Mrs. Bull, “One must work as the dictate comes from within and then if it is right and good the society is bound to veer round, perhaps centuries after one is dead and gone. We must plunge heart and soul and body into the work. Until we be ready to sacrifice everything else to one idea and to one alone, we never, never will see the light.” With so much work going on all the time His first season of New York classes came to a close on 1st June 1895. 

Swamiji always writes about His travel plans, His whereabouts, His work to either Mrs. Hale or to Mrs. Bull. 

I love this aspect of Swamiji..! He seems to be a genuine son to these mothers! Even we in our lives are not so thoughtful to simply call and convey to our parents about what we are up to!! Read the below two letters to Mrs. Sara Bull -  

The 28th May'95                                                                                                          
 Dear Mother                                                                                                           

Your last kind letter to hand. This week will be the last of my classes. I am going next Tuesday with Mr. Leggett to Maine. He has a fine lake and a forest there. I will be two or three weeks there. From thence I go to the Thousand Islands. Also I have an invitation to speak at a parliament of religions at Toronto Canada on July 18th. I will go there from Thousand Islands and return back.

             So far everything is going on well with me
             Ever your grateful son
             Vivekananda
             P.S. My regards & love to your daughter and pray for her speedy recovery'"
                                                                         V
4th June '95
Dear Mother
Today I leave New York at 5 p. m. by steamer with Mr. Leggett.

The classes were closed on Saturday last [June 1] and so far the work has been very successful, no small part of which is due to you.

             Ever praying for you & yours
             I am ever your Son
             Vivekananda
             P.S. I will acquaint you with my whereabouts as soon as I know it myself.


Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Not a Chance nor a Coincidence! - "15th May 1895 was also a Wednesday" -

LBT strike has delayed the printing of my Poem Book which had kept me really tied up for last few days. Suddenly everything has come to standstill and had time to reflect again over Swamiji’s life. I have been reading the ‘Life of Swamiji by His Eastern & Western Disciples.’  I have two topics in my mind right now but I forgot to bring the 2nd volume of Life from which I had to scan a picture and then write the blog. So I started thinking of the ongoing summer and then the two important summers in Swamiji’s life. Where He must have been today, on 15th May 1895?


So come let’s check. I know for sure that he was in New York but on 15 May 1895 where were you Swamiji and what were you doing?


ATTENTION!- the Swami Vivekananda of India will deliver two lectures at Mott Memorial Hall, 64 Madison av., on Monday evenings, May 13 and 20, at 8:15, subjects, "The Science of Religion" and "The Rationale of Yoga." Course ticket $I; single tickets, 75 cents; for sale at the hall.


Ohhh…! If 13th was on Monday that means 15th May 1895 too fell on Wednesday like today. I feel like clapping hands at this coincidence which I suddenly came across. Nay, I feel like taking a huge loudspeaker and announcing my research, my finding!


On 14th May, Tuesday Swamiji had written to Alasinga, "Now I have got a hold on New York, and I hope to get a permanent body of workers who will carry on the work when I leave the country...Of course financially it is a failure, but men are more valuable than all the wealth of the world." And then we find that Mrs. Ole Bull reaches New York on 15th for the 2nd lecture to be held on 20th as per above notice. That means today He must have met her & been with her.


By this time the heat was pressing upon the people in New York and they were leaving for vacation to mountains and beaches. Even Swamiji felt the need to rest and to be away from the boiling city after the hectic schedule of lecturing continuously.


There came two invitations which He accepted. One was from His student, Miss Mary Dutcher, who owned a cottage at “Thousand Islands” in the St. Lawrence River 300 miles away from New York. The other was from Mr. Francis Leggett to visit his fishing camp called Camp Percy in the White Mountains of New Hampshire.


I want to tell you so much! Already my mind has gone to Camp Percy and the Pine tree…but you have to wait till tomorrow for this. The other summer which is called as ‘The Great Summer’ is when Swamiji spent the longest time at Ridgley Manor in August 1899. About this later but can’t wait to share His stay at Camp Percy..!!! 

Monday, April 22, 2013

"Divyatvachi Jeth Prachiti, Tethe Kar Maze Julati" - "Where Ever I See Greatness, I Bow With Reverence"



It has been a week of elevating experiences. Saturday 13th April was spent with the Mentally Challenged Adults at Nav Kshitij, Pune. My school classmate Chandrashekhar Khapre introduced me to this NGO as his daughter Pooja is also an inmate here. 

Last year a group of 22 of us had visited Nav Kshitij and had decided that we shall spend one day with them. We, means our Nachiket Group which comprises of  all whoever were working with me during my stay at Vivekananda Kendra, Pune. 

So, we took a day’s workshop at NK and came back with immense satisfaction. Asavari Gupchup took ‘Drum Circle’ and ‘Balloon activity’, Rucha Zope took ‘Drawing Session’, Jayashri Mandake took ‘Creative session with Paper and Paper folds’ teaching them caps etc. Young 10 year old Laxmi Gupchup and Geeta Wadekar volunteered in the workshop. I took song with actions ‘Hind ke Bahaduron’ and told Swamiji’s stories. To our surprise they knew Swamiji by name and also told me that he had been to Chicago. Later they were asked to prepare a skit on Swamiji’s stories with the help of the staff. They responded wonderfully and we realized that we need to learn to be innocent and pure like them. The efforts of the Founder Dr. Neelima Desai and the dedication of staff made us bow with reverence.

On Tuesday & Wednesday I had lecture on Swamiji at Pune Blind Girl’s School in Kothrud. Telling stories to blind children was a totally new experience for me. Last whole year was spent talking to the audience, holding them with eyes, easily seeing their expressions and becoming one with them. Here I was looking at the faces where initially I was searching for their reactions, which came with difficulty. And then the scene changed as small smiles, laughs, little claps and sorrowful ‘uff’ n ‘ohhh’ started coming out as they heard Narendra suffer after his father’s demise.

I wasn’t aware after sometime that I was addressing the blind girls. Next day when I went the wonderful lot was already waiting. The girls are so talented and all sorts of efforts are made for them to become one with the mainstream. The Principal Mrs. Pujari and the teachers are doing the amazing work by looking after the girls from age of 4 till they leave after graduation and taking vocational training at the school. In Principal's cabin two small girls came to complaint about something. Mrs. Pujari said that one girls' mother also studied in the same school. I was surprised to know that even blindness can be hereditory! May it be due to lack of vitamins or other factors. So much to do and so much can be done at different levels to serve the society. One needs to just start doing and there is no end to it.

I went down the memory lane and kept thinking of my 1 year spent at NAB (National Association for Blinds) before joining Vivekananda Kendra and Kailas Shivade kept coming back to mind. About this I shall write separately.

Then the 3rd visit happened immediately on next Saturday that is on 20th April. Mr. Pavan Savant, GM, (CSO Automation Projects) collected donation for 400 solar lamps for EVE Foundation. A group of Tata Communications from Mumbai & Pune gathered at Vivekananda Kendra, Pimplad. With the help of VK workers we distributed the lamps at Nandgaon Koholi village, Taluka Trimbakeshwar, Nashik.

The village visit made us all humble and happy as the villagers welcomed us with love and eagerness. The  young girls had prepared a welcome song and dance for us. They were happy to receive the lamps and in return gave a small book of Swamiji’s life and message to the donors. May their lives get lighted with this small effort from the society.

All three visits to totally different places and meeting different people within a week kept me elevating internally and also making me more humble to serve the motherland in which ever possible ways. Swamiji’s twin ideals of work ‘Tyaga’ and ‘Seva’ were reflecting at each place. In Marathi we have such beautiful lines that come to my mind – ‘Tethe Kar Maze Julati’!

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

I am Ahilya reborn by HIS magical touch...

Belur from Ganges

We reached Kolkata on 22 February  2013, me along with my Aai (mother) and aunt. In the evening took darshan of Kali Ma at Kalibadi & held back my tears. I broke one more inhibition by buying 'Shankhchudi' for myself & wore it happily as a  blessing of Mother Kali. This time had planned to show all other historical places to Aai before we went to Belur. So we saw Netaji Subhashbabu's House which made us feel extremely proud, Victoria Memorial  and Nehru Children's Museum which again is an awesome place to visit. Then lastly we travelled by Metro and were ready to go to Belur on 25th morning.
After dropping the luggage i almost ran to the main temple and then it was in torrents that the tears rolled though very silently. As i reached Swamiji's room i could not control, there was no one to see & did it matter? Cried to my heart's content as they were tears of joy, of happiness, of meeting my 'GuruSakhaa' as i call Him. I kept looking at each of His object, His musical instruments, His bed which Josephine had gifted and kept feeling HIS presence.

Finally i was at Belur.!! At Swamiji's abode, with Him, in His presence..!!! 

I felt very lucky to be here in the year of  Swamiji's 150th birthday celebration  It is so peaceful at Belur even with so many tourists around. I just kept visualizing Josephine and all others moving at every place...Bhuvaneshvaridevi standing down and calling, "Biley" and the obedient son coming down to  meet His mother!

Sitting at any Sri Ramakrishna temple in front of Thakur always tears roll, silent soundless tears, i know not for what but it surely works like a therapy, cleansing my inner wounds..!! Next day was Jayrambati and Kamarpukur which was like infinite blessings showered. On 3rd day 27th attended Mangalarti at 4.30am which felt like an utterly magical experience. It was a full moon night and could still see the bright moon, intense silence, rippling sound of Gangaji and third Shraddha walking along witnessing me n my thoughts. As the aarti began i got lost almost till the end...no tears, no pain, no grief, no wants, no body and no mind absolutely. Will this magic happen again? Where was 'I'? Where did He take me? Was the small 'i' merged with the Cosmic Self? The hall was full, all quiet, withdrawn and the atmosphere was charged with intense energy and unwavering bhakti...Yes, because only Bhaktas would come at such early hour to attend the Mangalarti.

From 27th Feb. to 2nd March i was at Shovabazar, Rajbadi, where we had 3 day conference at the very place where exactly 116 years ago Swamiji was given a royal welcome by King Navkrishna & the people of Kolkata to their beloved Naren after He returned from America. About this separately tomorrow. On 3rd March i went back to Belur again, this time alone and saw the room of Swamiji under maintenance and felt lucky to have seen it earlier in original form.

Below His room is a mango tree under which Swamiji used to sit, it is more than 150 years old, standing with the support of pillars. Yet, it was in full blossom showing that it too was equally blessed. I put my head on its branch and said to it, "Do you know, YOU have become a Kalpavriksha....blessed by Swamiji's touch You too have become blessed and can also bless others. You have attained the power of a wish fulfilling tree." I wished for a child, a girl who was constantly in my prayers this time. Till date i never have asked anything from God except sorrows but this time prayers were at Mothers & Masters feet to look after her and make her free of an eclipse which suddenly darkens her life. I prayed at Mayer Baadi, Udbodhan- Mother's Home to Holy Mother from where no one returns empty handed. I am sure the trinity will bless the child..!!

Like Sati Ahilya, i too was like a stone lying on the streets on whom thousands treaded without a single glance and life was meaningless. Then HE came and the magical touch of Swamiji transformed this stone into a flowing stream of life full of vigour and energy....making it meaningful, to serve, to pray, to help and to spread His message of strength and of love.!

May by His grace each life be a meaningful journey turning from a stone to Pure Energy transmitting Love...unselfish, undemanding!

Thursday, February 21, 2013

The Third Shraddha – a witness!

This often happens; nay it has become a part of my existence now. There are already two Shraddhas existing in me and at the same time I am aware of this third Shraddha always with me. Let me explain – Suppose this physical Shraddha is speaking or writing, there is another Shraddha within who prompts me to do things and at the same time there is this third Shraddha standing apart looking at me – how I speak, what I write, what I do! She watches me when I read Marie Louise Burke volumes and she becomes a part of the entire scenario to witness the events happened 120 years ago. Then she follows me when I speak about Him and we all become one with Swamiji. There remains no difference in me, listeners and Swamiji. Oh, this Oneness in many and many in One..!


Yes, third Shraddha is a witness attitude of mine which doesn’t leave me even for a moment now. It started happening when I was leaving for Arunachal Pradesh in 1986. Till then I was not much aware of her existence, though she was always there. In between during the traumatic years she seemed to have lost because i got too entangled in my own dukha, my sorrows, self pity. Then as i started going to Sri Sarada Math, Pune and again speaking about Swamiji she slowly returned. She told me that she was always there but i was only aware of my Annamaya & Manomaya koshas. My body didn't have time to think and my mind didn't want to think...!


This Sakshibhava, the witnessing attitude has to be developed and then to be made it a part of oneself. The moment I indulge in any activity I do, I feel bad or I feel happy but the minute I become aware of this witnessing Shraddha I start rising above all emotions of happiness & sorrow.


During the journey of 150 lectures the Third Shraddha started getting very prominent. Each lecture became a new creation, each place a new acquaintance, each family an old relation, each person becoming close, breaking the barriers of past lives.


The Third Shraddha kept watching in awe at these events, people and relations! From where do they come? How everything is getting organized? The unseen hand of the divine making things happen smoothly. It actually happened last year during my wandering with Swamiji like Marie Louis Burke says - A divine plan unfolding..!


Just imagine all this was happening only because of Swamiji, in whose name events were organized. He made me believe that what happened to Him as an unknown stranger in an unknown city 120 years ago can even happen now who ever will work in His name.


Now, as I write this blog the Third Shraddha is watching in silence, watching my mind, my emotions as they flow through words. She makes me realize that I have to be more aloof and detached but Swamiji doesn't allow and again His love binds me…

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Icing on the cake - the best part of Swamiji's Tithi Pooja


Feel Blessed with Mother's Grace
This is my Facebook write up on 3rd February...


I must tell you this - i have to!



On 1st February 2013 in the evening i got a call from Sri Sarada Math, Pune. One of the Mataji said,"Shraddha, nn Swamiji's tithi puja Sarada Ma will be wearing the sari you had brought for Her." I was very happy indeed & said, "i truly believe now that my 150 have reached Him".



The story doesn't end here... i had bought the Sari from Sarnath when last year we had been to Chitrakoot, Kashi etc. I searched today for those pictures & i was enthralled to know that i had bought this sari for Maa exactly on 3rd February 2012 and today Mother has worn it exactly on 3rd Feb. 2013...!

I am happy to the brim knowing that She has blessed me and She has blessed all..!!! It is not by fluke nor by chance but by Her infinite grace She has blessed every one who were with me during my journey last year....every one who became a part of 150 lectures. What do you say?

After every lecture i use to say that, "after a pilgrimage, a yatra we usually do a 'mavanda', a celebration but for me i do not want any punya, may all the accumulated Punya be distributed to each one who became a part of it..! So it has happened, am assured of it..



Icing on the cake..!



The story doesn't end here...read the best part...



I slowly digested the fact that The Mother has worn that Sari which i had bought for her and concealed my happiness, didn't get much excited and kept ruminating over it. I again got a message that the sari will be changed on 7th so if i had to see i can come to Pune by 6th evening...and i reached. 



As i went there i saw all the Matajis smiling at me. Then i got to know something more from which i haven't yet come out. They told me that every year a saree comes from Belur for Sarada Ma for Swamiji's Tithi Puja. Even this year it came but after putting it on Mother they saw that it didn't have border etc. so it got rejected and then saree brought by me was selected. It has sometimes happened that the sari sent by Belur wasn't approved by the Matajis' but it seldom or rather it had never happened that a sari has been put up on Holy Mother and then removed. 



Every thing points towards a fact that i am very lucky and blessed. I am scared because this is too much for me to handle. Have never been so lucky any time but blessed?


Yes, i am ready to agree with the fact that i am blessed. Every body who worked hard to get this Sankalp fulfilled is actually the receiver of this Blessedness. I am just the mediator to tell His message, His life and take His infinite grace to all.


I have posted the following on Facebook after seeing that blessed sari on Ma Sarada Devi - 

Yesterday came to Pune & straight went to see that blessed sari which the Holy Mother chose. There is one more angle to this story, but I must keep it in heart. When we give a cheque we get receipt for it. Similarly, this is a receipt that the bouquet of choicest 150 lectures reaching Him. I like the marathi word-Pochpavati.! See the pic & feel blessed..


Monday, February 4, 2013

“He is an artist in thought, an idealist in belief and a dramatist on the platform.”-Appeal Avalanche, Memphis

I know that Swamiji will reach Detroit in February 1894 and hence want to rush through the earlier events. I personally love the Detroit part of His American stay.

He arrived in Memphis on 13th Jan.’1884 and was guest of Mr. Hu L. Brinkley at Miss Moon's establishment, Third Street, near Poplar. Miss Virginia Moon was fondly known as "Miss Ginny" in Memphis. She had turned a academy building into a boardinghouse for six or seven bachelor gentlemen. She was around 50 when Swamiji visited Memphis and one of the most extraordinary characters. Swamiji must be surely delighted to meet this emancipated woman with a spirit of independence.

On 14 Swamiji gave an interview for the local Memphis Commercial and spoke on 15th for the first time in Memphis. He gave 3 lectures and the report came in the Appeal – avalanche, few excerpts from which are –
“COMING WEEK'S ATTRACTIONS

             Memphis this morning has a distinguished visitor in the person of Swami Vive Kananda, a Brahman monk of India, who is the guest of the Nineteenth Century Club. His culture, his eloquence, and his fascinating personality has given this country a new idea of Hindoo civilisation. He is an interesting figure, his fine, intelligent, mobile face in its setting of yellows and his deep, musical voice prepossessing one at once in his favour. So it is not strange that he has been taken up by the literary clubs, and has lectured and preached in many American churches. He speaks without notes, presenting his facts and his conclusions with the greatest art, the most convincing sincerity, and rising at times to a rich, inspiring eloquence. "Hinduism" will be his subject next Tuesday evening at 8 o'clock at the Auditorium.

What was His subject on 15th we do not know but due to a later research by Sister Gargi, we surely know from an item in the Appeal - avalanche of January 21 that "the address of Swami Vive Kananda before the Nineteenth Century Club and the reception given after the lecture was one of the pleasant events of this eventful year in club calendar. “A piano solo and a song" formed the musical program of the afternoon.” We wonder as how many musical programs Swamiji must have heard while on tour!

The paper also writes further-        
AMUSEMENTS

             "One of the giants of the platform," "a model representative of his race," "a sensation of the World's Fair parliament," "an orator by divine right " All this and more is true of Swami Vive Kananda, the Hindu Monk, who is in the city, a guest of the Nineteenth Century Club. Several members of the club heard Vive Kananda during the recent parliament of religions, and were so charmed with his eloquence, his earnestness, his culture, that they determined to have him visit Memphis, and to this end have been in correspondence with him since the adjournment of the parliament. On tomorrow evening at 8 o'clock in the Auditorium an opportunity will be given the people of Memphis to see and hear this earnest, eloquent Brahman tell of the religions, manners, and customs of his people.
THE HINDOO MONK

             The Eloquent Lecturer from the Orient Will Be Heard Tonight

             Swami Vive Kananda, the Hindoo monk, who is to lecture at the Auditorium tonight, is one of the most eloquent men who has ever appeared on the religious or lecture platform in this country. His matchless oratory, deep penetration into things occult, his cleverness in debate, and great earnestness captured the closest attention of the world's thinking men at the World's Fair Parliament of Religion, and the admiration of thousands of people who have since heard him during his lecture tour through many of the states of the Union.

             In conversation he is a most pleasant gentleman; his choice of words are the gems of the English language, and his general bearing ranks him with the most cultured people of Western etiquette and custom. As a companion he is a most charming man, and as a conversationalist he is, perhaps not surpassed in the drawing - rooms of any city in the Western World. He speaks English not only distinctly, but fluently, and his ideas, as new as sparkling, drop from his tongue in a perfectly bewildering overflow of ornamental language.

             Swami Vive Kananda, by his inherited religion or early teachings, grew up a Brahmin, but becoming converted to the Hindoo religion he sacrificed his rank and became a Hindoo priest, or as known in the country of oriental ideality, a sanyasin. He had always been a close student of the wonderful and mysterious works of nature as drawn from God's high conception, and with years spent as both a student and teacher in the higher colleges of that eastern country, he acquired a knowledge that has given him a worldwide reputation as one of the most thoughtful scholars of the age.

I am purposely giving the details directly from the newspaper as they are so specifically writing about His language, His eloquence, His mannerism etc. Memphis was in love with Swamiji...let us see tomorrow how they loved Him..!

Saturday, February 2, 2013

'Unknown becoming Known and then my very Own'..!

My Power House where all my Prayers are always heard...Sri Sarada Math, Pune 

As one day i wrote this line - 'Unkown becoming Known and then my very Own', it became very dear to me during this entire year. It is a curious fact that I do not remember when I said about giving 150 lectures and how this became my ‘Sankalp’ ever. In fact I am very happy that I do not remember. The moment I identify myself with that time I said it, it will show my ego i.e. “I said it at so and so time”! By not remembering it I know it’s His wish & not mine.

As I reflect over the events of last year, I know very much in the heart of my hearts that this was not easy – 150 over a year’s time, with my work, office, travelling, really it was not easy. By His grace I rarely fall sick but I remember constantly praying to Swamiji, “Please, let me not fall sick till I complete my 150 lectures”. See, how we pray? When I was scared of losing my voice in 1993, I remember constantly praying to Thakur, “Please, give my voice back to do Your work, to speak Your praise”! And HE granted. Once more intensely I had asked sitting outside the Male General Ward of K.E.M hospital, “Lord, please save Sudhir from dialysis at least for a year”! The prayer was granted and it was exactly after a year that the dialysis began. So folks, we have to be very very careful for what we ask from the ever merciful One!

I am not aware how this year has passed! Things just went on happening.. people who knew me & knew me not went out of the way to organize my lectures. This really surprises me even today…they didn't know how I speak, nor do they knew me but they just trusted the person who approached for me. I got humbled day by day as I travelled and stayed at the homes who treated me like a family and let me confess – Every time, at every place I told myself, this love, this respect is not for me, this is just for Him whose name I represent and the name whom these people love beyond imagination.

Looking at the devotion of people at certain places I kept staring in awe, in reverence! When would I become like this? When would I start worshiping Him like them? I stopped questioning and became more n more humble!

Swamiji in fact got me prepared for this work for all these years. When I look back I know and I am convinced that it is He who moved me from place to place carrying His message. Had He not made me complete the lecture series on ‘New Discoveries’, Tantine, Sara Bull and again and again speak about the unknown Swamiji in the West, this journey wouldn't be possible.

As I look around and see people striving to get unselfish love, I find myself most lucky to have not one but many such people in my life whom I call ‘Atmaj’… Born of my soul, nay, parts of my Soul..!

I experienced the Oneness of which Swamiji talks, the scriptures define, Thakur practiced and the sages proclaimed! It is this 'Ekatma Bhava' which binds us all to love unconditionally, without thinking of returns & gains, profits & losses, gives & takes…just pure, unassuming, infinite Love.

Aptly putting these feelings in words is – “Unknown becoming Known and then my very Own..!

Friday, February 1, 2013

'Being away yet being with HIM...Feeling Full yet Empty..!'

Remand Home children meditating after the lecture on Swamiji. 

It has been months that i opened my own blog and even peeped into it. It is a wonderful feeling of - 'Being away yet being with HIM...Feeling full yet empty...with so much of gaps in writing yet feel Complete..!! Isn't it amazing..!'

This is absolutely unforgivable that I didn't have time to write my blog, about my journey with Swamiji. But once I tell the experiences in this one year of marathon journey with Him you all will love it. Just to remind you readers – Last year I had a Sankalp, a resolution to deliver 150 lectures to commemorate the 150th birth Centenary of Swami Vivekananda in 2013.

The aim was to reach those places where no one goes, especially the interiors of Maharashtra and other places. Of course I reached such places but I also visited many schools & colleges in the metropolitan cities and what I found was surprising. I also took Him along with Thakur and Ma to Remand Homes, Rescue Home, Ashram Shalas, villages, literates & the learned,  hostels & offices, where ever He felt like taking me.

People were hardly aware of His life, forget knowing about His mission, His work, His message. Almost none knew anything about Swamiji. The Youth kept Him away thinking of Him as a mere Spiritual leader & can be thought of or to be read in a later age. The middle aged & elders were ignorant because they never have time after they start getting entangled in the web of job, family & commitments.

My goal was simple and clear from the beginning. I wanted each one where ever i go to feel love for my 'GuruSakhaa' and make Him their friend for rest of their life. I think i have succeeded in at least converting nearly 50,000 and more number of people to love Him. 

It is like Ida Ansell had said, "Swami Turiyananda used to say, 'Mother can make the mouse a lion'."

I truly believe that Swamiji made me do all this, in fact He got it done through me. I am humbled during this year as i travelled the length & breadth of my motherland receiving the love from unknown people at unknown places. My favourite slogan became 

- "Unknown becoming Known and then my very Own"! This will be my next blog, telling about these my very OWN people in Unknown places.